Barefoot Goddess Blog, day 57, 9/4/10
I read Oriah Mountain Dreamer’s blog about her month away, recovering from her divorce, and I thought, wow, she sounds so honest, so moving. What a wonderful writer!And here I’m always talking about my heart swelling with love for birds and children and sunlight and my husband…..Does THAT sound sincere? I feel a little confused right now (which is okay, as far as I’m concerned), am I lying? Everybody seems to go so deep and authentic in their suffering and over here it’s just joy, joy, joy and more joy! Am I a fake?
Sure, I woke up this morning thinking, Oh my gawd, I’m gaining back the weight I so happily lost. Help! But that is so fleeting and seems so irrelevant compared to one single dust mote dancing in a single beautifully slanting sunbeam. I could say, I really wish we had the funds in our budget to replace our aluminum windows, but do I care, really? No, not actually. They’re just windows, but I’m a miracle and so are you. Our bodies breathes and it feels so good…
The cold air on my skin and the promise of warmth when I go stand outside in the sun….